(Exhale)

It’s been a month since I last wrote here - and oooh, boy, has a lot happened. We’re pretty much all on home confinement now, as the COVID-19 virus is everywhere. I haven’t had to change my routine a ton, because I already work from home for my virtual management job and at my home studio. I’ve been writing posts for my satellite artist - virtual residency over at You Are Here. I’ve eliminated external duties, and moved my appointments all online.

I’d already been feeling overwhelmed, with an increase in work at the management job, plus different tasks that took a lot more of my energy than normal. I’m doing the residency (which is good because otherwise, I’d be letting my own work subside for right now), and keeping up with appointments and meetings, but my bandwidth had been really low, and doing anything else just added more stress. I KNOW I wasn’t getting enough time to myself to recharge.

… and now this. I am not capable of handling unwanted emotional labor right now.

It is definitely a weird time for me. I’m worried about people, furious about the ruling party (as usual), and mentally exhausted. I can’t stand all the hateful rhetoric being spread about, and the issue that no one wants to take responsibility for anything. I want radical change on a good day. We NEED radical change on a good day…